But today, I decided to get to school at 7:45am like always & work on homework because today A LOT of stuff was due. So I wrote my Midterm papers in 2 hours, & wrote a bunch of reflections & such & I got all homework that was due today done, but nothing that I'm behind on ... So now that I'm on my Fall Break which is just a 3 day weekend, I'm going to be partying & playing catch up.
My morning before I got to school sucked.
Mom ended up having a complete melt down on us which was ... horrible.
She's putting my dog down ... I understand why, but she's doing it for all the wrong reasons.
She also gave me a heart attack when she pounded on the bathroom door telling me I needed to clean up the dog's mess ... USUALLY if someone messes with my morning schedule, my entire day is ruined, but it wasn't.
Even listening to my dad & my brother duke it out over my brother's nearly all failing grades, or my little sister sobbing because she borrowed mom's hairbrush & lost it ... But I got to school, sat in my spot & got down to business.
It was so peaceful, no one even walked by or spoke or anything, so it was just me & my work.
It's things like that, that make me want to live by myself.
Before my ex-boyfriend, I saw my life going like this:
I'd go to my dream college (Concordia, Moorhead),
Study abroad in Italy and London,
Be involved in the radio, choirs, clubs, ensembles,
Graduate with my double major in Secondary English Education (Lit. & Comp.) & Music Education,
Get a job teaching at a high school (preferably S.P.C.P.A.),
Live in a small condo, just me, my books, my Yorkie Phidipedis,
Have a wonderful boyfriend,
Get married in a few years,
Have 2 kids,
Be a published writer/poet, own a jewelry store, write & record music,
& live a full & beautiful life.
I know, it's a lot, & I've already failed at some of them ...
Now my dreams?
Get him back. (I know, it's pathetic & whatever, but I don't care. I don't mean fight to get him back, I mean just ... I want to be with him again ...)
Take a photography class,
Take Latin & ASL,
Take jewelry classes,
Get the job at Build-A-Bear Workshop,
Find a way to either transfer to Concordia, or at least live on campus here,
Write music,
& find balance/control in my life.
Those are just for right now.
OH MY GOODNESS I FORGOT!!!
I HAVE MY OWN RADIO SHOW!!! It's called "Artsy Fartsy College Student"!
Basically, it's half my music, half my crafts. I'm even thinking about making another blog for it, or maybe just a Facebook page. I start next Thursday from 4pm-5pm. I am SO excited!
Well, today begins my vacation, so I shall post tomorrow!
Ciao bellos!
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