You know what the hardest part is?
Knowing it's not your fault.
I did everything I possibly could to hold on to him & he just let me go. Because he gave up, he didn't want us ... I'm so used to things being my fault that I never really thought about the fact that maybe someone just doesn't want to be with me ...
So instead of thinking about it, I pretend I never had a boyfriend. I act like I've been single for the past year-ish (I'm always in a relationship before it's official).
I make a fool of myself, I buy a leather jacket, I laugh, I dance, I buy movies, I write poetry, I make jewelry, & I make scarfs.
My new plan is to get back to where I started.
"Maybe" by Ingrid Michaelson is my new theme song.
& that all makes this easier to handle. Because as I've said 100 times before, sometimes people fall out of love.
Now to do dishes, watch the Lizzie McGuire movie & do my homework.
Here's to getting back to where I started from.
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