Everything Changed

SO.

Everything changed.

Literally everything.

Isaac used me.
He used me & was an ass & I'm done.

I'm actually done.

It's the strangest sensation waking up & not longing for him.
Not wanting to know how he is.
Not really giving a fuck anymore.

Let me be clear.
I still care about him.
I forgive him.

But I'm out.

He was a manipulative fuck.
It honestly makes me feel sick.
My stomach churns & my skin crawls.
Like I'm grown.
I am a strong, independent woman & I know better.
But it happened & that's life & I'm done.
I'm just fucking done.

I spent so much time trying to tell him he's a good person.
So much time trying my fucking hardest to make him feel better.
& he was just waiting for Sara to come back.
Which is cool.

So as aforementioned I am DONE.

I really hope he's happy.
Legitimately.
One day I hope he makes a good decision & is happy.
I just won't be around to see it.