I've been up well passed midnight for the past few nights ... Because I love someone & he's shutting me out. Old school as he would say.
I cannot even begin to tell you. He's my everything & I ... I just ... I love with my whole heart when I do.
The thing is ... this is the time of year when I need people the most, & I feel like I have no one.
Seasonal Depression is the worst, it really is because it catches you by surprise & then kills you.
So I sit in front of my computer watching t.v. & playing games, talking to people who live across the ocean to distract me from the fact that I am so damn lonely I could cry ... Which I am doing.
As well as stuffing my face with Blue Corn Tortilla chips. I've almost eaten a whole bag.
Well, I'm off to sleep for a few hours before I have to go back to school.
I was really looking forward to ditching but ... I suck, & people get mad, & life is kicking me in the guts sooo ... I seriously need to go to bed so I stop sulking.
Here's what I look like when I feel my worst.
Buonanotte world, wish me luck.
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