A lot has been going on.
I finally had the courage to tell my mother that I don't like her as a person ...
As you can imagine, that did not go over well.
She responded (as usual) with her blame game & hurtful comments.
It hurts me, but I'm not surprised.
Isaac made plans twice to see me & bailed both times.
I told him to go suck an egg.
Not actually, but it would have been funny.
This is good.
I know a lot of people would be in pieces over this, but I'm not.
I honestly feel as though a huge weight has been taken off my shoulders.
Because I'm tired of being hurt.
I'm tired of putting everyone else's feelings in front of my own.
I am sick of being walked on & manipulated.
I am Alicia.
I was born with the wind in my face.
Not a second of my life has been easy.
I have fought a million times over for my right to live & my right to exist.
Who the Hell are they?
Who?!
People who should've had my back.
People I trusted & wanted more than anything else in this world.
People who decided I was not important enough.
So why should I spend day after bloody day wringing my hands over them?
I am sure neither has lost a wink of sleep when I stayed awake for days.
I am Alicia.
Every which way I turn I am given a chance to live.
I'm up for a promotion for a job I haven't even started yet.
I am loved.
I am worth so much more than what I've been lead to believe.
I am fighting.
Right here, right now for my life.
If you're not here to help, get out.
