Love Yourself

Hello, long time no chat.
So I've discovered some really great stuff since I last posted.
First & foremost in my mind is that positivity is everything.
Part of the workout video I'd been doing was a meditation bit where we put our hands over our hearts & said, "I love myself, I trust myself, I will be myself."
Simple, yet I realized how incredibly effective it is.
Because even if you don't feel it, it still helps.
So everyday I make it a point to tell myself that I love myself.
It's hard, especially when I have all these negative feelings inside.
But it really helps.
So please, remember to love yourself.

Second in my mind is that I REALLY do not have a type.
Well ... My type is people who make me smile/laugh.
You know what this means!
I HAVE A SHOW CRUSH.
A really, horrible, no good, very bad, never going to happen in a million years, show crush.
He's old.
Not old old but old enough that it makes me feel stupid.
I have no idea what it is about him ... But he makes me laugh & so here we are.

Anyways, this show/haunted house thing is doing wonders for me.
I bike an hour a day, then we're working up a sweat running around & making fools of ourselves.
So I'm working out so so so much.
But I'm also not sleeping enough, so there's that.
However, I'm really enjoying myself.
I feel like I'm in 8th grade again.
Everyone is of drinking age though which is awko taco ... whoops!
I should hop in the shower & go to bed.

Love yourself.

Slippery Slope

So to help with my weight loss I've been using an app called My Fitness Pal.
It really seems to b working for me, though not as well as I was hoping.
There were a few days when I wasn't eating enough calories, I almost passed out so I had to cut back on my work out.
However ... That means I haven't done it in a while.
I'm still biking though, but it's not enough, I know that.
I've lost 1.5 lb. so far, but that's not enough for me.
My flatmates are worried about me.
I just want to be my old self again.
Is that so much to ask?
I've gone up like 2 pants sizes.
I hate it.
I need to do my work out everyday, I know I do, it's just hard.
However, I go on vacation soon, so I'm super excited about that.
Ciao!